celebrate the irony!

hmm,

i decided i can play with emotions well.

like, through this blog.

i can make you feel like you're pissed off.

just because i happen to be right now.

but also in real life.

the best part about yesterday?

a kid in my last period class...

he looked at me and said with wide eyes,

"you look pissed off."

matter of fact, i wasn't pissed off.

just pretty depressed at the moment.

but i suppose i looked pissed off.

and then, kelsy, told me today,

that i just seemed sad.

i guess it's easy to tell when i'm not normal.

because i'm normal so often?

that would be my guess.

since i don't usually show my unhappy emotions?

maybe that's it.

it was almost an accomplishment, but not quite.

i didn't relish in the moment.

just thought it was interesting, was all.

people can tell when i'm not happy.

that means something, i'm not sure what yet, though.

i'm pretty bummed i didn't see a certain someone today.

and that i can't make that certain someone happy.

i feel like a waste of space.

when i can't make someone happy.

seriously, it's a tragic feeling.

because then i'm just terribly sad with them.

which, i believe, is what's happening right now.

but i was more pissed off earlier.

it just happened.

i went from crying, to just sad, and now to pissed off.

this whole thing will be over by next week, i'm sure of it.

i also just decided that i'm completely pathetic.

since i'm at home, with nothing to do,

i watch movies, hopeless romantic types,

of course, because, well, you know..

and i just expect some text or something.

'hey, want to come hang out?'

'hey, want to watch a movie or something?'

like i'm cool enough to hang out with you.

which, i'm not, so...

that's all you need to know about that subject.

one of my most favorite songs...

let's dance to joy division, by the wombats...

is seriously an amazing song.

want to hear some lyrics?

okay. i'll add it to my playlist later.

let's dance to joy division, and celebrate the irony,

everything is going wrong, but we're so happy!

let's dance to joy division, and raise our glass to the ceiling,

because this could all go so wrong,

but we're so happy, yeah we're so happy!

so if you're ever feeling down, grab your purse and take a taxi

to the darkest side of town, that's where we'll be

and we will wait for you, and lead you through the dance floor,

up to the dj booth, you know what to ask for, you know what to ask for...