thoughts.

during the day i don't think about what i'm going to write here.

when i get on my computer, it just kind of comes out.

whatever i'm thinking about at that moment.

but i'm starting to read a book.

it's called hold still, by nina lacour.

there's something special about this book.

when i read it, i go to another place.

then when i'm finished reading, i feel like a space cadet.

but don't get me wrong, the book is amazing.

it's about a girl and how she acts after her best friend dies.

the world kinda crushes around her.

here's an amazing quote from it.

"here's how i feel: people take one another for granted.

like, i'd hang out with ingrid in all of these random places -

in her room or at school or just on some sidewalk somewhere.

and the whole time we'd tell each other things, just say all

of our thoughts out loud. maybe that would have been boring

to some people, but it was never boring to us.

i never realized what a big deal that was. how amazing it is

to find someone who wants to hear about all the things

that go on in your head. you just think that things will stay

the way they are. you never look up, in a moment that feels

like every other moment in your life, and think, soon this will

be over. but i understand more now. about the way life works.

i know that when i finish reading ingrid's journal, there won't

be anything new between us ever again."

that's probably the only thing you'll read in here that's quoted.

but it's a book that is worth reading, if you want a good read.

so go ahead, hold still.