viva, rock vegas.

so i realized that this is going to be a very eye opening experience.

i move out here to vegas, expecting a four month visit.

little did i know i was going to be starting work the day after i get out here.

not only work,

but at a dental office.

with no dental background or prior knowledge of the subject.

then i figure out i'm going to be put into the dog pit as soon as possible.

taking on a whole other position that i wasn't aware of.

then as i'm getting comfortable,

i start disliking the place.

and as i start to look forward to the end of the four months,

my sister tells me i should stay and go to school.

convinces me that it is the best thing for me to do.

that i'll be able to work part time and go to school part time,

out here in vegas.

this all sounded great to me at the time.

i want to go to school, and here it's a very possible option.

utah would have been more difficult for me.

but as i begin to think about it,

i have no friends out here.

absolutely zero friends.

and you can't exactly go out on friday nights

to local places and just make friends.

cause you have to be twenty-one to even do anything.

what about all of my friends back in utah that i love?

sure, i'll be able to make new friends out here when i start going to school.

but that probably won't be until august, and this summer

is going to be a terrible summer without my friends.

hopefully this is all worth it.

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car accident.

a peaceful tune to back behind a wonderful scene,

the sky's shining reflecting off of your eyes.

wind making small whispers as your hand dances through it,

while one hand sits securely on the navigator to the world.

a simple buzz,

the one distraction of destruction.

instead of keeping up with the navigator,

with a smile you read the words of desperation

of someone else, in a peaceful place

somewhere that you wish you could be.

within a few moments, you can't stop the inevitable.

the ship you were controlling,

as the wheels keep turning,

get smashed against you.

your heart shudders as the mighty navigator erupts,

in a simple act of kindness to protect you.

but it can't save you, as you get thrown around

like a rowboat in a tsunami.

the peaceful tune is replaced by silence,

a memory of what was.

beautiful life replaced with desperation.

the device of destruction.

i'm air.

i am the air.

i'm all around you.

i'm embracing you.

dancing through your lungs.

rolling down your throat.

travelling through your nostrils

down through your body

and eventually out your butt.

the song of a love bird.

i love this song.

fall, go on and fall apart.

fall into these arms of mine,

i'll catch you.

every time you fall,

go on and lose it all.

every doubt,

every fear,

every worry, every tear.

i'm right here.

baby, fall.

sing it to me.

<3

it's not easy being green.

well, i haven't written here for a while.

sorry about that.

a few things have happened.

i'm hoping to get a job at a restaurant soon.

work there all the time,

save up,

buy a car,

get a laptop,

move out,

learn how to live on my own.

because it's not too fun here, when you're trying to be an adult.

i just need a job.

something to keep me occupied.

because i don't have money for school, so...

yeah.

besides that, i've found this site.

it's called tinychat.

i have met some pretty amazing people.

from all around the world.

i spend a lot of time on there.

pretty popular, if you ask me.

but, it doesn't help my confidence.

oh well.

i miss my high school friends.

every day.

but i don't really make an effort to see them,

because i feel like i can't.

so disappointing...

ugh.

all of my sisters are going to be here for christmas this year.

i'm so excited.

i have been cleaning houses to get money,

so i'll be able to buy a few things.

but other than that,

i don't think i'm giving much.

and i'm not getting a lot, either.

which i don't mind.

i would rather see everyone and enjoy my time with them,

then worry about the presents.

christmas always makes me warm and gushy inside.

i love chubbs.

that is all.

peace out girl scout. (:

i swear

this always effin' happens to me.