random spewing.

my mom and dad have been divorced since i was 3
my mom had four kids with some other guy then 12 years later had me
with my dad
and they got divorced and then they both remarried
so i have five half siblings,

cause my dad has a son that's 12 years older than me also but i've only met him once
buck is 33 i think, lives in colorado
bridgit is the one that lives here, 32
brianne is in utah, 31
and my sister brendi is 30 or something i don't remember
but she lives in oklahoma
buck has four kids
bridgit had two and married into two, so four
brianne has three
and brendi has two
with all of my step siblings included
i have like 19 siblings
26 nieces and nephews
and i'm the youngest of all of them
uhh i lived with my mom in utah
my dad lives in wyoming
i'm with bridgit in vegas
i work in the dental office

uhh more about me
i love video games, dancing, music and writing
i'm a big nerd
only had two boyfriends
my favorite drink is orange soda,

favorite fruit is orange and favorite vegetable is potato,

favorite dinner is chicken over rice
desert is red velvet cake
my birthday is may 25th, i'm a gemini
nobody has seen me naked
i like to read
i love going and seeing movies
i like to cook
i love my nephews more than other people
i love my dog more than i love all people
uhhh, i'm very tom-boyish in how i behave, i think
but i like to buy short shorts and paint my nails and stuff
i hate girls
i only have two girlfriends
that i still talk to out of high school
and i have like three guy friends in utah that we call ourselves the 'wolf pack'
i don't really like dinner and a movie dates...

i'd rather go bowling or to an arcade
something that is fun that you can get to know each other
but i've only been on like... three formal dates
i'm fat
i've been to the beach once, california once
i lack self confidence and self esteem but i try not to let people know that
i'm also a little depressed but i also try not to show people that
i'm hilarious
with the right people..
i love cartoons
my favorite cartoon is spongebob squarepants
my favorite singer of all time is david bowie
favorite band is queen
favorite movies...
hitchiker's guide to the galaxy
cloudy with a chance of meatballs
horton hears a who
monty python and the holy grail
little shop of horrors

and easy a.
favorite color is purple
i'm very loyal and once you're a friend you are always a friend
very trustworthy
i keep secrets very well
and i will listen
i want to go to school to be a journalist...
i've been in one car accident
i laugh hysterically at fart jokes or farts
i want to get a tattoo of a bumble bee on a rose

i love spelling and grammar.

that's all random facts about me.

if i was your boyfriend.

more than ever do i want a relationship that means something.
a guy that actually gives a crap about me.
a guy that i can kiss and just lay around on the couch with.
wrestle and hold hands.
lay on a bed and talk for hours about nothing
until we actually fall asleep in each other's arms.
and one that trusts me 100%
that i can just be myself with and not care.
i'm getting sick and tired of not having someone like that.

that is all.

viva, rock vegas.

so i realized that this is going to be a very eye opening experience.

i move out here to vegas, expecting a four month visit.

little did i know i was going to be starting work the day after i get out here.

not only work,

but at a dental office.

with no dental background or prior knowledge of the subject.

then i figure out i'm going to be put into the dog pit as soon as possible.

taking on a whole other position that i wasn't aware of.

then as i'm getting comfortable,

i start disliking the place.

and as i start to look forward to the end of the four months,

my sister tells me i should stay and go to school.

convinces me that it is the best thing for me to do.

that i'll be able to work part time and go to school part time,

out here in vegas.

this all sounded great to me at the time.

i want to go to school, and here it's a very possible option.

utah would have been more difficult for me.

but as i begin to think about it,

i have no friends out here.

absolutely zero friends.

and you can't exactly go out on friday nights

to local places and just make friends.

cause you have to be twenty-one to even do anything.

what about all of my friends back in utah that i love?

sure, i'll be able to make new friends out here when i start going to school.

but that probably won't be until august, and this summer

is going to be a terrible summer without my friends.

hopefully this is all worth it.

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car accident.

a peaceful tune to back behind a wonderful scene,

the sky's shining reflecting off of your eyes.

wind making small whispers as your hand dances through it,

while one hand sits securely on the navigator to the world.

a simple buzz,

the one distraction of destruction.

instead of keeping up with the navigator,

with a smile you read the words of desperation

of someone else, in a peaceful place

somewhere that you wish you could be.

within a few moments, you can't stop the inevitable.

the ship you were controlling,

as the wheels keep turning,

get smashed against you.

your heart shudders as the mighty navigator erupts,

in a simple act of kindness to protect you.

but it can't save you, as you get thrown around

like a rowboat in a tsunami.

the peaceful tune is replaced by silence,

a memory of what was.

beautiful life replaced with desperation.

the device of destruction.