i watched a movie this evening.
called,
seeking a friend for the end of the world.
it was a very touching movie.
the ending made me cry.
the best thing about the ending?
it really was the end.
whatever happened, we didn't know.
the screen just goes black.
it made me wonder what i would do,
if the end of the world was near.
nothing would matter after that.
money would mean nothing.
a huge asteroid was going to hit the earth,
and nobody could stop it.
all the big houses would just be burned to the ground.
the rich people inside, burnt.
nobody would be alive.
the only thing that you would be worried about,
would be your past.
what you didn't get to do,
what you wanted to do with your last few weeks of life.
have i lived life to the fullest?
could i die and not be unhappy with how far i've come?
it saddens me to think about the end of the world happening.
but december is just around the corner.
no more dick clark for the new years celebration.
if i had a month before the end of the world,
i would definitely move back to utah to be with my mom.
and my dog, chubbs.
plus all of my friends,
which i would hug and thank them for making me who i am today.
a certain someone would come to me,
and i wouldn't let go of his hand until the end.
i would make sure we did everything we could.
probably fly back to see his family in the end, too.
i've always wanted to see england.
my last moments, i would be hugging my spongebob pillow,
and hugging him,
while i cried my tears out over the world.
everything that could have been.
all of the children, all of the stories that were untold.
people that didn't get to be with their families for the end.
my tears would be for them.
and for my own life,
for what i didn't take advantage of,
everything that i didn't go out and do.
so many feelings.
sigh.
i really hope the end of the world doesn't happen this year.
but it's still at the back of my mind.
even if the news doesn't talk about it,
or the internet doesn't have it everywhere you click.
now that i have a reason to be happy,
a reason to actually live the rest of my life,
i don't want it to end.
especially if there are zombies involved.
